A Change of Heart

Heidi's Story

A leaf in the shape of a heart.

I have been clean and sober from drugs and alcohol since December 2004. When my life changed, it changed in ways I never thought possible.

Before my time of recovery, I had been enduring an abusive relationship and knew I needed to get out. We were both too lost in our addictions to have a healthy relationship. When I lost my job, I knew that if I didn’t change my life, I would be in serious trouble. Everything in my life seemed to crumble and there appeared to be no end to the suffering I felt. I contemplated suicide every day for over a year, each day telling myself, “Not today, but maybe tomorrow.” 

When my defenses became too weak to hold up on my own anymore, I knelt down and prayed for the first time in five years. I knew I wasn’t living the way I should because of my addictions and I wanted to stop. I asked Heavenly Father to help me change the terrifying course my life was taking. I decided to end my addictions to drugs and alcohol.

The blessings from my decision came quickly. After just one day of being clean, my abusive boyfriend was arrested and I never saw him again. Three days after my prayer, I went to my first Addiction Recovery Program meeting and felt the sweet influences of the Spirit for the first time in five years.

I was clean for four days when visiting teachers showed up at my house to take me to a Relief Society activity. I was clean 14 days when I went back to work and 60 days when I went back to school. It was three years when I got my bachelor’s degree and five years when I got my master’s. When I married my husband in 2010, I had been clean for a beautiful six years.  

I now work as a drug and alcohol counselor and strive to help others overcome their addictions. Today, I have hope, love, and faith in my Savior to overcome anything. Through my years of sobriety, Heavenly Father has healed me and brought peace to my life. I have learned to forgive myself and use the Atonement on a daily basis. My transition to recovery all started with a single prayer and a change of heart.