Surrendering Myself to the Lord

Nathanial's Story


A man on the ground, reaching up to a helping hand.

My story is about my addiction to prescription pain medications and nearly every illicit drug. Because of my addictions, I was homeless and friendless. I had hurt my family so much that they had to step back and let me feel the true nature of my wrongs. I lived on the streets, chasing the only answer I still believed could help me get through my trauma and pain. I felt hopeless, helpless, and utterly alone.

My mother prayed fervently to Heavenly Father one night because she no longer knew what to do to help me. Her prayer was answered when I was arrested two weeks later with a no-bail warrant, landing me in jail for a long time. Finally I was able to find and receive the treatment I needed. While incarcerated, I heard of the LDS Addiction Recovery Program, Alcoholics Anonymous, and Narcotics Anonymous. I met an incredibly faithful saint who pointed out that the light of Christ within me had never burned out, but that I had dulled it with “bushels and baskets” of drug use and sin.

While at a meeting one night, a fellow addict bore his testimony. It caused me to believe for the first time that there was light at the end of the tunnel. I finally felt that recovery was possible and that I had a choice to act differently. I surrendered to my Lord and Savior that night. I have been clean ever since. I have not found it necessary to drink or take drugs for more than eight years now.

Along the way, I have struggled and faltered many times, sometimes falling far short of the path Heavenly Father has shown me. But I have not returned to my addictive behaviors, and that has made all the difference. I have kept a temple recommend for the last two and a half years. I am sealed to my wife and three daughters for time and all eternity. I have held many callings faithfully in the Church, and I am currently a substance abuse counselor, offering this same beacon of Christ's healing power to many wayward souls. Because of where I have been, I know that my life is a blessing.

I thank Heavenly Father from the bottom of my heart for caring, lighting the pathway back to Him.